Hitting a low point

The trickiest part of developing, when your living in it, is keeping the momentum going once the initial flush of enthusiasm fades. This is made particularly harder by outside influences sometimes, like I have just lost my job and have been on the sofa for two weeks with the flu!!
Not man flu but proper flu so you can ask me any question about daytime tv and I'll know the answer, although at one point the pain in my head was so bad it was impossible to focus on anything loud....or bright, I think its the longest I've been of Facebook in years! Picture me in dark sunglasses, subtitles on watching American sitcoms on repeat in the middle of a building site!
When your feeling that low, it all comes crashing in and the brave face goes out of the window, you know those cracked and rotten windows that need sanding, painting and refilling but for now all you can do is sit in the draft and sob. I'm not going to sugar coat it these last few weeks have been tough.

Normally when life knocks you you'd scurry home, shut the door behind you, pull on your comfy slippers, put the kettle on and snuggle up in the warmth and safety of your own hugging four walls but when your walls are anything but snuggly its not much fun. The worry of suddenly having no income when your bathroom in bare plaster and a caving in ceiling is no joke and I'm hiding from the neighbours as there is now no money to replace the dilapidated fencing on the left which joy of joys is mine and will require several hundred pounds throwing at it.

When there is no shoulder to cry on and and your terribly missing the shoulder you used to cry on the test to ones character is immense. You really wish your fairy decorating-mother would show up and finish it all off and sprinkle anti-heartbreak dust in all the little cracks (or big ones)

So in the spirit of reduced financial means to do up the house, my drippy red nose and I went shopping! Look at the bargains I got! This thrills me, finding bargains, doing up a room cheaply when you could have spent a fortune and it doesn't look cheep, hopefully I can transform the Living Room for Christmas.