Wobbly bits

Soo back to the story, after I put in the offer and had it accepted it was the sensible thing to do to get a survey done to ascertain if there were any problems. This is absolutely fundamentally necessary, DO NOT skip it to save money, it can end up costing you dearly. The RICS Home Buyer Survey should be thorough enough to pick anything up, mine was booked for the following Wednesday and cost £300 which I was to send in advance of course. I didn't have £300 so I had to borrow it.
The seasoned house buyers amongst us know never to get your hopes up and begin to think of the house as your home as a gazillion things can go wrong and your heart is in a fragile enough state as it is without more loss to cope with. Its tricky but keep non emotional about the whole process, not easy when your desperate for somewhere to live.
The survey didn't go well, the dreaded word 'Movement' was used and I was devastated, never very good at taking my own advice but I needed a home so badly, I needed to get my children back under the same roof and I needed to begin my new life. This was a really difficult time, coping with heartbreak, missing my partner so much, it took every ounce of strength to keep going. I had a new job to get used to and I was travelling a lot between my old home, where my daughter was still living to be near school and my mums where I was living with my son, which wasn't ideal as their lives didn't run on the same time clock as mine. Every setback felt disproportionately unfair. I felt powerless and desperate, it was horrible. I didn't want to just walk away from Ambleside and besides there were no other houses on the market that I could afford but I had to be sensible. I didn't know what to do next, what the next step was so I asked my solicitor, hoping he wouldn't charge too much for the advice. The advice was to ring a Structural Engineer and talk to him about what exactly was causing the dreaded movement. I was so nervous to make the call, it felt like one of those do or die calls and I really was out of my depth but the man I spoke to was so reassuring. It wasn't a case of running a mile from the property he said, oh yes it was a worry he said but not necessarily a deal breaker. I was so relieved and handed over another £225, borrowed of course and was quite relieved it wasn't a lot more money as I'd worried it would be. More anxious waiting until the report came through and by the time it did a long month had gone by since I'd first put in my offer.