I haven't written for a while. I made my Facebook Page public and added some personal Facebook friends, it was too soon, it stifled my writing completely. I hadn't expected that at all and it was because there was now a link to me telling my story and the people that knew me before. Having lived so publically and negatively like that for so long, I had for the past year and a half withdrawn and lived a life that no-one from my past had anything to do with or knew anything about. It was what I needed and in hindsight it was exactly the right thing to do. I have built a new world for me and one day I thought I would merge the two, old and new but now I realize that I just don't want to. More specifically I don't want 'him' seeing my words, knowing my feelings, there is just no need. I haven't written any of this so that he would know it. I haven't written it so old acquaintances would know it either, it's none of their business. It's funny how time changes things, how what seems so important at first isn't important at all when time has passed.
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