3 tables and a cabinet

Now I did buy 3 little tables and a cabinet to be going on with, I couldn't help myself. I ferried them back to Mothers garage and began sanding. It gives you a purpose, something to get up for in the morning and I highly recommend beginning your personal rebuild as soon as you can, even if you have to wait to move into your new home as it turned out I did.
Theres lots of little things you can do to begin your journey back to happiness, which seem pointless at first, meaningless when your drowning in miserableness and fighting with your own thoughts but find something to get your teeth into and MAKE yourself do it. What your after is a sence of achievement, however small and the creation of something new that has nothing to do with your old life.
When I first moved into Ambleside those boxes remained firmly packed for weeks, some of them still are. I took out the basics of what I needed such as pans and plates but most things were such painful reminders that I couldn't bare to have them about. So creating new things gives you something to look at at least, that doesn't reduce you to a jibbering wreck. I look at those things now, with some of my old life bits and pieces sitting on them and I remember that poor shattered person I was when I was sanding and repainting. How I would go back inside the house cold and numb wanting the comfort of my own house and feeling lost and alone. But those tables and that little cabinet fill me with a sense of pride now because it didn't beat me, even in those early confusing, scared, heartbraking days, those projects where just like the tiny new shoots outside the garage that signalled the end of winter and the beginning of spring, they were the new shoots of the roses that were to be my future life.