'sigh'

As you can probably tell some time has gone by since I left, some days it feels like a chunck of time and other days, like today, it feels like seconds. There was a huge party last night, a celebration that had been planned before I left at which everybody and anybody belonged and today there are pictures all over Facebook of fun and sillyness and happy faces, of which mine isn't one. Theres someone missing in the group shots.....me. Social Media can be a real friend when your living alone but other times it can be a curse. Here I am isolated.
I can't talk to the party goers of my sorrow as that would be humiliating, it wouldn't occur to them to talk to me today anyway as those friendship are only occasional now and besides they only see the brave face I want them to see, so they would think I'm fine.

I talked to them in the beginning and they were all so kind but now to them it would feel like dragging it all up again, sour grapes, as they're totally over the shock and upheaval inflicted upon them against their will by my leaving and everything is now all back to normal in their world with a new face slotted into my spot in the team and anyway I am all fine and dandy on my new chosen path.
I can't talk to my other friends who, although I have had them for years, I did not make part of my couple life, other than the odd tearful moment when I let my guard down and fessed up. They think I'm well out of it all and are very proud of me for staying strong and staying away.

They just wouldn't 'get it'
ok so today I am doom and gloom....