Hearts a breaking

There is heartbreak all over the world, many tears over terrible losses and each person suffers their own pain so I keep reminding myself there are far worse things. But walking away from someone you love, giving up on a life, a family and leaving your home, that hurts, it really really hurts. Right now it doesn't feel like that pain will ever go away and with Christmas coming, that the guilt will ever go away as my children are suffering too. It's all horrible but it had to be done and I have to be brave, at least to the outside world and I have to show my children that living your life with self respect and dignity sometimes takes an awful lot of strength.